Below are the 17 most recent journal entries recorded in baby_bats' LiveJournal:

Sunday, December 9th, 2007
11:47 am	Shane I see the path that your eyes wander down There’s something so beautiful In that boy’s smile And I know if I were to wait Just a while I’d find the truth in his eyes. (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 23rd, 2007
12:37 am	no italy It’s strange how things that are actually really little (like what people think of me) used to make me fly off the handle so much. I guess I’ve just really grown up fast, even more so these past few weeks. I mean, remember when I got so mad at Jordan for commenting on my journal? God that was awful, I can’t believe I let him get to me like that. When today when I read those emails Angle sent me that Ashley had sent her. I mean I guess it’s nice to know she’s got some form of remorse, but I guess it’s easier for her to judge me since she keeps up with what I’ve been doing, when I just hear the snippets of rumors Kenzie and Zac like to tell. (I doubt she was really pregnant but I agree if she was she’d get an abortion) But I sat there waiting for the burst of angry adrenalin to hit, and nothing….not a thing, it’s like, yhea so? She called me an attention whore, she doubted I went threw and eating disorder, so what? It’s like I have to prove that to people? It’s not worth it. It’s like, I don’t even feel mad about them any more, they’re bitter about the past and they know thier lives are hollow, so who cares? I’m glad that they find happiness in others. God knows as sad as I am about not being able to go to Italy next summer and as bummed as I am that well…you know…. I’m still happy. I’ve got drums and art and they’re not defenses any more, they’re passions. And who knows? Maybe someday soon I’ll feel like saying yes to one of the guys who have been trying to ask me out. (probably not Tony though!) And I’m not worried about dropping eleven pounds this summer, I’m just happy to have passed my certification test for life guarding and emergency rescue, now I can get paid more and teach swim lessons. Current Mood: apathetic (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 28th, 2007
6:45 pm	musing of a house The house mourned for me. Feeling what was left of my soul, the ghost part I had left behind when I nearly died, be covered by cheap paint. I heard it. That comforting voice that all good houses have. It said in not so many words that it was sorry. That the house had been built because of my birth and my fathers greed. He treated it poorly, walking on it in mud covered shoes, spilling things and chipping walls. It hated him. It loved me. Me who cried in it’s corners when he yelled. Me who cleaned up the evidence each night. Me who was nice enough to smoke out side and never did drugs in side of it’s walls like they did. The house could feel itself being covered in cheap paint, the memories being hidden like the family secrets. It knew I was gone. But now it was clear I didn’t belong any more, I wasn’t coming back to rid it of it’s smells, to drain it when the basement flooded. It didn’t know where I was going, where my new home would be. The little girl it was built for, the family it was built for wasn't real any more. The little girl was gone, all that was left was the rude old man it hated. was this how it's life would be? (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 16th, 2006
10:24 am	hey ali! how's school. can't mail cauz school blocks email. so here i am, shitty day yesterday but kenz and jordan and i watch yellow submarine. your going to love you cristmas presant this year gtg luv (Comment on this)
Monday, November 6th, 2006
1:07 pm	diesel I have to give up diesel. mom's got somthing against not sleeping and nabors complaining. new house rocks though. luv you ali. Current Mood: grumpy Current Music: the noise of student's suffering (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 28th, 2006
8:43 pm	help me please hi, my sweat sixteen is coming up and i'm going to a 30stm concert to celebrate and i want to make a special tee shirt for it. So (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 26th, 2006
9:31 pm	creeps okay, i ignored the surge in creepy guys taking intrest in me, writing it off to the moon phase, but i checked the moon calender and it's no where near a full moon. i don't get it. i've been wearing a sweater for gods sake, a big turtle neck sweater, sure it's fuzzy but wtf man? i must radiate some sort of smell that atracts creeps. *sudder* maybe i should go all comie and kill of all these people. nah, that would make me a bad person. maybe i'll get lucky and the gov. will lock them up and they'll resort to caniblism. yhea, that way my constiouse is clear. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: breaking bengerman (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 30th, 2006
12:43 pm	I'm kinda lonly right now. Like i'm stuck. there's all this good stuff coming but what about the right now? what can i do about it? I know i have to do some paper work and get to cleaning but god i'm just tired and sick of the mondain. I wish i could be traveling the world right now, but the farthest i can go on my own for now is for a walk with the dogs. *sigh* life boaring today. Current Mood: blank Current Music: all hail the heartbreaker (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 18th, 2006
10:58 am	hello every one, day three of bed rest. first day of missed school. i feel bad about missing school because i missed so much last year. but i'm really sick. i've had a fever for three days, and o god my head. plus my stumach is full and queassy. i havenn't eatin much all weekend and yet i am full. Moms closer to a new house. she just needs to land a job. then mabye sell this peace of shit. (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 14th, 2006
8:34 pm	well i've got two events coming up. on the 14 of october i'm seeing emecence sp? and tool. then that same week on the 18 i get to see thirty seconds to mars. yay on a nother note tomorrow i hand in my application to the ymca. hope to god i get it. well other than that. not much Current Mood: tired Current Music: call me when your sober (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 30th, 2006
10:20 pm	hi...again..promise no angry ranting this time...just bored, my finger hurts, broke it in a car door, lets see...umm...six days ago.. alrigt for those who are formilare with me you already know my theory that casual sex is like shoe shopping... well next theory shopping is better then men. no fighting and you still get the endorphins. why do i bring this up? SHOPPING TRIP!!! day after tomorow. i've saved 440$$$ to spend all on my self...yay!!! Current Mood: awake Current Music: 30stm budda for mary (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 30th, 2006
10:46 pm	did you know that in the past ten years 10 million festuses in india were aborted because they were female? that women who do not bear male children are sold off to be another mans wife? there is just over 800 females per 1000 males? Trafficing brides to india is one of the countries largest buissness.a bride can be bought for around 180 american dollors. it's cheaper to by a woman then it is to buy live stock. that's the last straw for me, i'm takeing a years off after high school to join the peace core. Current Mood: angry (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 13th, 2006
6:38 pm	fucking angry cat Okay, what scum of the earth would put a fucking ciggaret threw a cats ear, break it's tail at the hilt fial it's claws down to stubs and then strave it by dropping it into the fucking country to leave it to die???? These people should be hunted down and killed, no not killed they should have thier nails riped out a leg broken and left in the middle of no where. *cough* sorry, a cat matching discripton above was brought in today, and i'm not very happy cauz it's the nicest cat in the whole fucking world lets make this one clear too...I'M NOT FUCKING PEDA!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: angry (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 10th, 2006
10:35 pm	letter. well, i gave dad his 'letter' if he read it or not i don't know, i was fair. even mom said it was fair. actully it hit her prettey hard too. cauz it sorta pointed out that neighter of them tried to talk to me about smoking, or asked me if i needed patches or the gum...or sighned me into a class. that's what parents are supose to do. they help...even if it means being the bad guy. that's even what the comercials say. then dad came over today, because i was sick. all he did was piss mom of by trying to weasel his way into taking me away from mom on mothers day. he wants me to go spend the day with his mother. not a snowballs chance in hell. i'm spending the day with mom and grandma k. she's having surgery soon and this is getting seriouse. Ali can do what she wants. but dad's pulling the police thing again. I'm making my self clear now, i will cauz hell until he stops drinking!!! he had one part a month ago and he's been drinking ever scince. he can't handle it. i'm actully scared of him again and i am not going back!!!! Current Mood: angry (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 9th, 2006
9:04 pm	days progress and money Saw rich yesterday, Zack’s dragging my personal life into public scrutiny. Must remember to do laundry. Litter of kittens were delivered three days ago at the pound. All smoky gray except for the largest, black and white. Have massive head ack and eyes are burning dry, the ‘just after you cry’ feeling. Feel a bit less tired though, after letting it all out. I’m not paying dad $500 for the car. Ali got two cars for free, it’s used, it’s sitting around, I’ll be paying for all my gas, I’m a kid who works every day of the week, goes to school and fights extreme emotional depression. Give me a break I’m barley human. Besides, I did the math, I’d have to save every cent I’d make all summer and still be rather short, gave mom twenty bucks for food today. She promised to pay me back, I’ve got that fine coming up. Oh, did I tell you? Dear old dad kept moms mail, (the library hadn’t gotin the new adress) cost her $26 in late fees. He’d been over nearly every other day, never said a word about it, I’m mentioning this in his “letter” Current Mood: aggravated (Comment on this)
Monday, May 8th, 2006
8:43 pm	ride to day has been a rather pms day. on the plus side i had many creative ideas and have been taking some steps forward instead of back down into the trenches again however on my bike ride to work i was in the "danger zone" for onld memories...and saw "him" (the bastard blood traitor who will remain nameless) and had an overwelming urge to follow him so i could bash his head in with a rock just to see if that damn blood of his looks anything like mime.however i should have know this was coming, i've been getting these, feelings again...like somthings going to happen and i need to change. already planing it, the change that is. most perquiler to day is before i saw "him" I saw a squirel sitting like a plush doll holding an acorn , i stoped right up close to it, it looked at me put his acorn down, did that cute squirrel wash the face thing, and picked up his nut. I like him. I will never try to catch him. he is special. now my kitty dan dan want to play, good night all Current Mood: anxious (Comment on this)
Friday, March 17th, 2006
9:28 pm	thumb I hurt my thumb really bad to day, i was wrestling with my ex boyfriend over a bag of cookies. we ended up splitting the last one. He's such a sweety. He and my curent boy Ryan wanted me to go to a grage band concert tonight, but i blew it off, head cold is still bugging me. Billy had a bent fork in school today, again with the forks...what the fuck people??? first they were nearly accused of holding up a gas station because they showed the clerk their fork, god damn them, they can be really stupid somtimes. well, thumb hurts, no more typy... Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: attack, 30stm (Comment on this)